Lost One

first off, don't blame yourself...blame me.

cuz I chose to not make peace,

and at 17, you truly can't be...

more than what you actually be...

...i feel like casualty...

...cuz now i'm too dead to see...

...remember what you said to me?...

this is what i should have said to sweetz,

"to you, there is no me..."

"to me, there is no you..."

"to us, there is no we..."

"and you, just stare at the clues"

and i, just stare at the moon...

this is the stor-y...

call it the histor-y...

or "his"-story...

... how could you not notice?...

...it sux feeling unnoticed...

...i felt like i was really unnoticed...

so i had to give her a notice.

maybe just to change her focus.

...so i gave her a notice.

...it did not save her, she's hopeless.

...she said that she will change her focus.

i feel like i made her focus.

but she just began loafin'.

so we sat in silence...

...like really...sat in silence...

no movement, no words...

i was upset in silence.

so i left her...silent.

no regret...i hide it.

hung up the phone, like you make me sick

she didn't know i was hanging up our relationship.

i really started to think that i hate this chick.

so our relationship,

was no relationship.

it sailed away on a relation-ship.

girl, i can't take this shit.

u showed me that you CAN take this shit...

...this was never a relationship...

...it was just a long date-n-shit...

...you wanted to eat all your cake-n-shit...

...then rub it in my face-n-shit...

...that same cake, will make-you-sick...

...i wonder how your takin-this...

don't let these harsh words fool you...

hopefully they will sooth you...

i'm not trying to acuse you...

remember I'M the fool who...

...attempted to pull you...

...attempted to woo you...

...attempted to love you...

...attempted to...trust you.

she lost one.

©Chris Barz 2006